i pray

Father God,
i thank you for You. for Your Holy Spirit. for Your Sacred echo (echoing all around)

Monday it was in these words:
a God that loves her so well she cannot mistake it
today it has been heard here

and so i write:

we were going to run an errand together.
she said she needed to do a couple of things before we left
and then
              she said
       that i
                 needed to do a couple of things before we left - -

   go and style my hair nicely and put on some make up.

(hmmm)
what do i do with that?

there was only one thing to do.
all praise to Him
He was and He is my strength
and (praise Him)
i gave it to Him
     laid it at His feet.
        then i smiled gently at her.

ten minutes later, just me and Him in the bathroom
i looked in the mirror
well?
my flesh wants to leave me as is
(how quickly i go from Him to me - ugh)
i reach for the make-up...
is this people pleasing?
Father, what does this look like where You are glorified?
  (thank you for the question)

       Why do you think she said that to you?

i think...
she said it because she can be embarrased by my appearance.
                because she values a particular appearance.
                because she feels better being with me when i look a certain way.
i think...
she said it because of her - not because of me.


i know who You are and
i know i am Yours.
thank you, Father.
Your grace, Your mercy
thank you.

i fix my hair,
put on more make up.

i whisper: thank you, Father.
i pray for her to know His unconditional love
i pray for her to find His Truth
                     to have identity in Him alone
i pray for her to see that it is Him alone who can make us beautiful,
                     to see that we are valueable because of Him,
                     to see that our worth is found in Him alone.
i pray that i keep my eyes on Him alone.

i pray.

~ ~ ~

i praise Him.
this morning i was learning from this teaching (week 5)
nine-year-old girl-love came downstairs, wrapped in her blankie
she snuggled on the sofa beside me, we watched together
read over the notes together
watched Dove's evolution together.

she thinks it is kind of silly that people fall into an appearance trap
she doesn't get it.
all praise to our Father.
girl-love knows the truth because she knows Truth.
i pray she always remember the difference between self-esteem and self-worth.
i pray she always remains here with Him.


i pray.


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